Angry

Just a little while ago I read a bible verse on a page that I follow on Facebook...

James 1:19-21: Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger; for the anger of man does not produce the righteousness of God. Therefore put away all filthiness and rampant wickedness and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls.

It made me think. It might surprise you to know that I am an angry person. Most of my friends ( both long time and newer ones ) havent seen the angry side of me. Unfortunately the three people who matter the most to me see it far too often. I dont know why that is. Obviously at times dealing with two kids under the age of 9 is very stressful. Pile that on top of the imbalance I have internally, work and money issues and I guess one could see why I get angry alot. Its not fair to Debbie or the kids. While I dont apologize as much as I should to Debbie I seem to be apologizing to the kids after the situation diffuses. I also make a point of it to remind them during better moments that I love them no matter what, even when Im angry with them. That nothing they do could ever change my love for them.

I know I need to work on some things. I know its time to get the next round of HRT too. Id like to work on putting what James talks about in the verse into my daily life. I think It would help out tremendously If I were to think much faster, hear much faster in some situations and not have so many knee-jerk reactions to situations. The only thing that comes out of those is me being a jerk.

Wish me luck and as always thanks for reading.

My How Time Flies

Wow, its December 1st already. Were has the year gone? I was just looking and its been two months since my last blog update. Hard to believe. While on that thought I was looking at the picture of the top of my blog. The footprints in the sand. I took that pic on New Years Eve last year as I stood on the beach at Mission Beach in San Diego. Wasnt sure if I was going to see the ocean this year until I went to the Outer Banks of North Carolina in November to meet up with my friends from Kickrunners to participate in the OBX Marathon and Half Marathon. We had a great time remembering and honoring our friend Joe "Voodoo" Truini who passed away earlier this year. I even took it a step further by dressing in a caveman suit and wearing a dreadlock wig during the half marathon. Joe often wore a caveman suit when running the Akron Marathon and other races close to his home there in Akron. Plus Joe had dreads so it just seemed fitting to honor him that way. After the race in OBX several of us went for a swim in the Atlantic Ocean that afternoon. Well seeing as how I am a life long desert dweller and it was November the water was quite cold. I dont think I ever got used to it, I think I was just numb LOL. I can now say Ive gone swiming in the Atlantic in the fall.

Thats about it for now. Didnt really have a huge entry planned, kinda just moved along.

Thanks for reading

Heres a pic of me in my caveman suit and dreads along the course in OBX